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gentess1
6th March 2010, 10:48 AM
I just don't know where to start, I don't know how to think anymore. My Todd passed away on the operating table on Tuesday evening. He was 2, and I have never felt pain like this before. I still can't come to say anymore at this moment, hopefully in a few more days I can add more, and even a picture of him.

Jane P
6th March 2010, 11:23 AM
I am so sorry he was so young. My heart goes out to you.:hug:

sins
6th March 2010, 11:41 AM
I'm so sorry to hear this.I can only imagine the emotions you're feeling right now.
But no matter what,please don't be so hard on yourself.It's just the suddenness of his passing and the pain of his loss that makes you feel this way.It's not your fault,he was having problems and not enjoying a fair quailty of life and you made a decision in good faith to try and restore him to health.
We'd have done the same...
you have our support and our deepest sympathy on losing your boy.
Sins

Desrae
6th March 2010, 12:02 PM
So very sorry for your losing Todd. It's not your fault at all, you made a decision to help him and he put his faith in you to do so. Please don't be so hard on yourself. We're here for you!

Claire L
6th March 2010, 12:26 PM
Oh my lord I am so so sorry for your loss . My heart goes out to you at this awful, awful time:hug:

Sandrac
6th March 2010, 01:12 PM
I am so so sorry to hear your very sad news. It is never easy when we make these decisions but it has to be done and anyone else would do exactly the same. So please please dont beat yourself up about it. In time you will remember how much joy and happiness Todd gave you and his memories will stay forever in your heart.:flwr::hug:

gentess1
6th March 2010, 02:24 PM
Hopefully you can see my changed picture. It should be of the most beautiful, clever, loyal, loving, protective, gentle, brave little boy in the world, xxxx sleep tight son xxx we all miss you

Cathy Moon
6th March 2010, 02:28 PM
I'm so very sorry for your loss of little Todd. It is very painful to lose a beloved family member. You are welcome to cry on our shoulders; many of us have been through similar situations and know how devastating it is to suddenly lose a young cavalier. :( My heart goes out to you. :hug:

meljoy
6th March 2010, 02:40 PM
Im so sorry for you. Sending hugs:hug:

Cathy Moon
6th March 2010, 02:45 PM
This is a copy of a poem Nicki sent me when my 2-year-old cavalier died. I hope you find some comfort in it as I did:

http://i109.photobucket.com/albums/n47/moonscape_2006/PoemUp-1.jpg

Jay
6th March 2010, 05:01 PM
I, too, am sorry to hear about the loss of your sweet Todd. It is heartbreaking to lose any beloved pet, especially one so young.
Cathy, that poem is lovely. Treasure the memories of all the happy times that you shared with Todd. He will be waiting for you at the Bridge, with his tail wagging.

Peace,
J.

heather r
6th March 2010, 05:48 PM
I'm so sorry for your loss of Todd at such a young age. Please remember that you were doing your best to help him and remember him with all your love. Although I have lost several dog companions, they were much older. I really can only guess at how you must feel. Please stay in touch as everyone will try to help you through this trying time.

Heather R

Love my Cavaliers
6th March 2010, 05:50 PM
I am so sorry. I know it's hard not to feel guilty for making the choice to operate, but you made the choice with the best information you had and wanting the best for Todd. I know it was hard to see him going downhill again. Treasure his memory always. Run like the wind Todd!

Cathy T
6th March 2010, 06:28 PM
I am so sorry for your loss. To lose such a young one must be so difficult.

waldor
6th March 2010, 07:11 PM
I'm so sorry about Todd. We don't expect this in a young dog.

Sending you cyberhugs :hug:

Charlifarley
6th March 2010, 07:23 PM
i am also really sorry to hear about your loss. Don't be hard on yourself, its not your fault, you were looking after him in the best possible way, trying to get his troubles sorted. We all would have done the same thing. All we ever want is the best life for our dogs, which is what you were doing. :hug: to you and your family.

Margaret C
6th March 2010, 07:38 PM
It is so hard when you feel that you have not said goodbye properly. I have had it happen to me, and I felt so guilty.

You tried so hard to make Todd well again. He could not have gone on the way he was. He was greatly loved, and you took expert advice and did the best you could for him.

Cuddle your other little dogs and take care of yourself. We are all thinking of you.

brownietrout
6th March 2010, 08:42 PM
I am so very sorry for your loss. Run free sweet little Todd...

gentess1
6th March 2010, 09:23 PM
A heart felt thanks to all those who have sent such kind supportive messages. I won't bring him back, but it has helped a little. I have come home to my memorys, and loads of glossy pictures which I have had a cry over. Been to talk to him in the garden which he loved, the neighbours must think I am mad, thankfully they know. Thanks again

Sabby
7th March 2010, 12:40 AM
It breaks my heart reading about Todd; God only knows how you must be feeling.
Loosing Todd at such a young age makes it so hard but like everybody else said you done the best for him and itís not your fault.
Thinking of you and sending lots of :hug:

gentess1
7th March 2010, 10:24 AM
Another night of none sleep over with. I have come to work to get away and try and catch back up, but it is not working. Where ever I go, I want to be somewhere else. Where I really want to be is this time last week, lifting Todd onto the end of my bed and having one of our play fight / bed cuddles, but it aint going to happen !! I could smell him in my car this morning, never noticed it before.

Claire L
7th March 2010, 12:23 PM
I'm so sorry you're going through this. I've been in your shoes so I know the feelings all too well.
You keep going over and over it all in your head, wondering if you could have done something different, what if I did this , what if I did that, what if I hadn't of done that ............... and on and on and on........... until it drives you nuts.

Truth is; you did everything that you possibly could........... you did your best and that's all anyone can ever do. The overwhelming pain that you have right now is the price that is required when you love and are loved in return by a pet member of your family.

I found that taking Bach's rescue sleep remedy helped me to get some sleep. Perhaps you might try it?

I really wish that I could give you the "Magic Cure" to stop the heartache and longing because I know how hard it is trying to cope BUT you will get through this and we are all here for you :hug:

Cathy Moon
7th March 2010, 04:14 PM
I'm so sorry you're going through this. I've been in your shoes so I know the feelings all too well.
You keep going over and over it all in your head, wondering if you could have done something different, what if I did this , what if I did that, what if I hadn't of done that ............... and on and on and on........... until it drives you nuts.

Truth is; you did everything that you possibly could........... you did your best and that's all anyone can ever do. The overwhelming pain that you have right now is the price that is required when you love and are loved in return by a pet member of your family.

Claire, that's how I felt (and sometimes still feel) with Charlie. You've stated it well. That is the price love requires, and no matter how painful a loss is, it doesn't come close to cancelling out all the love we had, have, and will have with our pets. It makes us stronger. It makes us appreciate what we have even more, because we know what it is to lose it someday.

Gentess1, would it help to watch a sad video and cry it out of your system? That has worked for me.

Added: I'm so sorry you're going through this.

gentess1
7th March 2010, 08:38 PM
Thanks for the advice, in the words of the song, I think I am 'all cried out'. I am trying not to push it, but I need to try and get back to work properly, my business has really suffered. But I would give it all up just to have one more ' bed cuddle'. Thanks for all your help.

How would I make a donation in the memory of Todd to the Rupert fund?

Cathy Moon
7th March 2010, 11:23 PM
That's so kind and generous of you. :flwr:

First, you might want to take your time, since you might still be in shock over this. :(

Once you've got your bearings, you could start your own thread in the Rupert's Fund forum, entitled "In Memory of Todd". Please feel free to post as many photos of him as you'd like. If you'd like us to lock the thread after you're finished, we will; or we could leave it open for others to post on. For your donation, you could either send a check, since you're in UK, or use PayPal; Karlin has posted instructions on how to donate in the Rupert's Fund forum. I will find the link for you.

Added: Here is the link: http://www.cavaliertalk.com/forums/showthread.php?33847-Small-donations-make-for-big-achievements!-How-to-donate

That's so sweet of you to think of doing this. You've helped me too, in your grief; now I'm thinking of doing the same for Charlie's memory.

Wagtails
8th March 2010, 03:01 PM
I too am so upset to hear about little Todd and my heart grieves for you, Gentess.

But you have had a wonderful idea for Rupert's Fund, which is, after all, named after another much-loved Cavalier. If all of us who have ever lost a Cavvie could just give a little for each one, and perhaps put a photo up on the thread too, just think how that would help the researchers - and ultimately, with a bit of luck, all of us who will go on to have healthier little pals in the future.

RIP, Todd, and healing thoughts to your mum http://i673.photobucket.com/albums/vv97/Cavviewagtails/Animations/Heartblowingpoog.gif

A piece of my heart
By Fionna Duncan

A piece of my heart is made of you
A small but vital place
Full of memories of happy times
That nothing could displace

Itís nestled in and settled down
Like a sleepy, winter mole
It's part of me now, flesh and blood
And it's connected to my soul

In time it will be pushed aside
And other parts will swell
With pets and people and places too
That I will love as well

But you will always be with me
So secure and tucked away
I'll know that you are safe in there
And we'll meet again some day

And when my heart begins to fail
Grows old and frail and weak
You'll still be in that special place
Until it gives its final beat

davey
8th March 2010, 10:53 PM
Hi, I am so so genuinely sorry for your loss and the awful pain you are feeling. I know it all too well. I really wish that there was something I could do to help make it go away. My heart breaks for you. A non doggy friend of mine told me it was time I started to get over my little happy harry ( he is gone a year the end of the month, and was only 2 as well)....she didnt bring it up again!!!

Thinking of you at this very difficult and heartbreaking time. The rescue remedy as mentioned helps...at least it will help keep you focused at work...

I dont know what else to say..but I cried for you as I know how hard it is....

Goodluck and be strong...I'll say a wee prayer for you and of course little furbaby who has sadly been given his wings:( x

gentess1
9th March 2010, 08:47 AM
Thanks for the touching post Davey. Today is going to be particularly hard as it a week since it happened. It is almost exactly the time that I took him for a little walk to destract him whilst the other dogs were being fed. Then we had a 90 minute drive with him, he loved the car, and was alwasy excellent in there, I still remember giving him a few longing strokes as we drove. I am not looking forward to this afternoon. I have the times that the vet rang me scorched in my head.
Sleep tight my little boy xx

Nick
9th March 2010, 01:45 PM
I'm so sorry about Todd. :(

2 was no age at all.

Take care of yourself.

Nick

*Pauline*
9th March 2010, 05:08 PM
Some pictures of the lovely Todd.
http://farm5.static.flickr.com/4022/4420283900_7b46394b78_o.jpg
http://farm5.static.flickr.com/4019/4420283794_f8e7bfbcd3_o.jpg

gentess1
11th March 2010, 04:21 PM
To all you kind support people, I have recieved the call from the vets, Todd's remains are ready to collect. I am going to get off work early and travel up to get him. Not looking forward to the journey, but I need to get him to know he is safe, and to bring a bit of closure ( thats what they say on tv ). It has taken too long to get him back.

*Pauline*
11th March 2010, 04:39 PM
I'm thinking of you Steve :hug: I know this will be a hard day for you but this is hopefully the last hard thing you have to do apart from get used to Todd not being around, gradually, day by day you will feel a tiny bit better. It all takes a long time. :(

Jane P
11th March 2010, 05:18 PM
I'll be thinking of you on your journey.:hug: I hope you can start to feel better once you have done this final thing for him and brought him back home.

Wagtails
11th March 2010, 06:08 PM
I have 3 of my own dogs (and 3 of friends) buried in our field. I say hello to them every day as we pass their graves and generally find it a great comfort to have them there, still with us.

Thinking of your sad journey today and hoping you will be comforted too.

http://i673.photobucket.com/albums/vv97/Cavviewagtails/Cards/Sympathycard02.gif

Nicki
11th March 2010, 08:13 PM
I'm so sorry - there is just such a dreadful raw pain, but in time it does get easier and eventually you will remember the happy times.

I think you will feel better once you have Todd's remains at home - perhaps you can set them up somewhere, maybe with a photo of him, his collar and his favourite toy?

We have a cabinet with our dogs boxes and urns, the wooden boxes are like photo frames with the ashes behind them. We still "talk" to them, and also have a wall of Black and white photos - a memorial wall. I know some do not like to have reminders of their dogs about them - other people like us have memorial walls and find it a huge comfort to still have their beloved ones in their lives. It's a personal decision.

You will go through a grieveing process - sadly that's the really tough part of loving them so much, they break your hearts when they leave you :(:( Every person grieves differently, and we all handle it differently - people will say to you that he was "Only a dog" - but all you can feel is pity for them that they have never enjoyed the bond we know.


Thank you SO much for honouring Todd's memory by donating to Rupert's Fund - it was such a lovely idea and a wonderful way to remember those we love by helping our beloved breed.

gentess1
11th March 2010, 08:27 PM
Thanks again, we are back now. It was like going to the dentist/driving test / exams etc all rolled into one. I managed to hold it together as the vets reception was full. I have to say that I was totally underwhelmed by the process. My devoted loved one, handed over in a plastic carrier bag, cardboard box with a computer printed 'ID' label on. The urn is nice enough, maybe I was expecting too much in my mass state of emotion.
I don't want to say I can put this all behind me now, because I never want to. He is sat in front of his picture in the front room right now, Rest In Peace my beautiful friend, hopefully we will meet ahain one day xx

Karlin
13th March 2010, 02:19 PM
I am so sorry for your loss. It is especially hard to lose a dog who is young when you ha every hope of creating so many more memories together. :( Cathy's poem from Nicki is a lovely reminder that his memory is also very close and will always be there with you; I hope it might help ease a little of the pain at this difficult time.

Karlin
13th March 2010, 02:21 PM
Oh goodness -- that was a rather cold way to receive his remains, I have just read your post above. I am sure you must have felt much better once you had him home and in a respected place. :flwr:

gentess1
13th March 2010, 03:13 PM
I have just had a text from my wife ( I am at work ), she has just received in the post Todds harness. The vets said they could not find it when we picked him up, this upset us. Then out of the blue it came in the post. Thankfully it still had some of his hair and smell on it, upset my wife ( and it will me when I get home ), but it is nice to have something personal of his again. Apparently little Megan went loopy when she smelt it ( in a nice way ). I am glad we have this last piece of the jigsaw home, my wife has been struggling, hearing him, dreaming of his little bark and general other thoughts. I KNOW he is with us, just so hard not been able to cuddlle him xxx sleep tight son xxx

*Pauline*
13th March 2010, 03:38 PM
That's so sad :(

:hug:

amanda L
13th March 2010, 05:23 PM
I am so sorry to read about the loss of your beloved Todd. He will live on in your heart and memories forever. :flwr:

gentess1
16th March 2010, 04:24 PM
Just a note to all who have help and passed on messages. It is 2 weeks to the day since our little Toddy passed on. It is becoming slightly easier, still have baad times and tears, but we are starting to be able talk positively about his short stay with us. We still leave his pillow on the bedroom floor, and the light on for him. Love you

*Pauline*
16th March 2010, 04:40 PM
Thinking of you and your family Steve :hug:

gentess1
24th March 2010, 08:52 AM
Today is a bad day on the road to recovery. I am trying to hold it together for my daugthers sake. It is her 20th birthday, but with that is the family visits from family that I don't see that often. My nephews love coming because of the big back garden and the dogs, but I know that Todd was there favourite because he was sooo playful , energetic and fun. I am not looking forward to having to explain his body is no more. I know children are stronger than we think, but I don't know if I am strong enough yet to tell them. Hopefully I will bumble through some how.

Molski
24th March 2010, 10:30 AM
Today is a bad day on the road to recovery. I am trying to hold it together for my daugthers sake. It is her 20th birthday, but with that is the family visits from family that I don't see that often. My nephews love coming because of the big back garden and the dogs, but I know that Todd was there favourite because he was sooo playful , energetic and fun. I am not looking forward to having to explain his body is no more. I know children are stronger than we think, but I don't know if I am strong enough yet to tell them. Hopefully I will bumble through some how.

I felt the same when i recently lost my molly , i didnt want to see anyone and talk about her as i knew i would just crack, all my little nieces and nephews would love coming to see molly (she wasnt as happy about it though ) and i hated having to say she was gone . When the time arose though in a weird kind of way it helped me talking about her to everyone , it helped talking about her and how wonderful she was , so be brave and im sure it will be ok , stay strong for your little Todd.

Nicki
24th March 2010, 11:04 AM
I'm so sorry, I know today will be tough for you - however even though it upset me a bit at the time, I found talking about the loss really helped.

I know when friends have lost relatives close to them, even life partners, they've said the same - it made it worse and was embarrassing for them and the person talking to them if they just skirted around it.

Children are actually more resilient than we think and this is how they learn to deal with loss and grief to prepare them for life...

Perhaps you could get out photographs of Todd and talk about the times he made you all happy, that it's very sad that he is no longer with you, but he was sore and he would not want to play anymore, and you are sure they would not want him to be unhappy...

Will be thinking of you today.

*Pauline*
24th March 2010, 01:29 PM
Hi Steve. Maybe you could phone before they come to break the news and be less under pressure when they arrive. :hug:

gentess1
25th March 2010, 09:07 AM
Fortunately or unfortunately, depends how you look at it, my sister came on her own, I was releaved and sad. she was geniunely sorry, and she didn't want to have to take the bad news home with her. She is the first person to notice the subdued atmosphere in the house, even with the other 3, which was good and bad also. I just feel so fragile, my coping skils and confidence are all shot. I am a 40 year old company director, and I am in pieces. I got a letter ( bill ) off the vets which was hard. It was an itemised bill for his last course of treatment, such a big bill for such a little beauty. It said I still owed £1700 which I knew wasn't true, I called them , they were polite and apologised, the copy was from their accounts people, the remainding amount had been 'wiped off'. This makes me feel like I treated Todd on the cheap, and if the cost had been higher it might have still been here. Sorry again for using this forum as my sounding board, I would have thought 23 days on I would be improving but I seem to be going back over as I see people getting on with their normal lives.

Molski
25th March 2010, 10:37 AM
Fortunately or unfortunately, depends how you look at it, my sister came on her own, I was releaved and sad. she was geniunely sorry, and she didn't want to have to take the bad news home with her. She is the first person to notice the subdued atmosphere in the house, even with the other 3, which was good and bad also. I just feel so fragile, my coping skils and confidence are all shot. I am a 40 year old company director, and I am in pieces. I got a letter ( bill ) off the vets which was hard. It was an itemised bill for his last course of treatment, such a big bill for such a little beauty. It said I still owed £1700 which I knew wasn't true, I called them , they were polite and apologised, the copy was from their accounts people, the remainding amount had been 'wiped off'. This makes me feel like I treated Todd on the cheap, and if the cost had been higher it might have still been here. Sorry again for using this forum as my sounding board, I would have thought 23 days on I would be improving but I seem to be going back over as I see people getting on with their normal lives.

Dont be sorry for anything , im a man of 33years of age who couldnt remember the last time i shed a tear , but when i lost Molly in January i have cried virtually every day , everyone takes a different amount of time to deal with their loss and there is no right or wrong . Cavaliers touch our lives and Todd touched yours like Molly touched mine , they were our soul dogs, Stay strong but keep the memories alive .

Nicki
25th March 2010, 11:03 AM
Oh guys now you've got me in tears too - these wee ones just get right into your soul :(:( They are just so very special and become a part of you.


It took me a year to really come to terms with losing my old boy - Rupert at 12 1/2, he had been such a huge part of our lives. I dreaded the thought of life without him, and really didn't know how to face it - but each day comes and goes, sometimes {to start with, most of the time} there are very sad days, but eventually you start to adjust, that dreadful raw pain eases and we can now, 16 months on, remember the happy times and laugh at all the naughty things he used to do!!

We have lost 6 Cavaliers now - and it NEVER gets any easier. Some insenstive soul said to us when we lost one aged 5, "what's the matter with you, you've got the other two?" - I so hope they never said that to peple who'd lost children as well...


But they are all individuals, and all very, very special - having had a few dogs now and also fostered quite a few, there are always the ones you develop a very strong bond with, and others whom you love but maybe not quite so deeply. The special ones are really hard to deal with when you lose them.

It must be even harder to lose an only dog - at least we still have the routine and someone to cuddle and keep going for...



Steve it was bad of your vets to make that mistake, and please don't feel if you'd spent more Todd would have survived - you did everything you could.

We are all here to support each other and it's good that we have somewhere to come and "talk" - we think of the forum as Karlin's sitting room, so we are all sitting round with a cup of coffee and "chatting" - but in a way that maybe we couldn't do if we actually met in person.

I don't think I've posted this before but it might help you to understand that most of us feel how you do...I made myself {and maybe the Universe, I no longer have any faith sadly} a bit of a bargain that if I gave up chocolate then Rupert would live. That was so hard for me as I was completely addicted to chocolate and did eat a lot - probalby as hard as someone else giving up smoking.

I did manage it - Rupert was more important - but of course it didn't work, it was Rupert's time to go, there was too much wrong in his wee body. I think Todd was the same, he was in pain and that's not fair.

{Strangely I have now had to give up chocolate due to stomach problems, it is a trigger for them.}


Stay strong but keep the memories alive .

Molski you are so right...


Thinking of you both.

Shivers
25th March 2010, 11:31 AM
I'm so sorry for the loss of Todd. I know too well now how you are feeling. I am on day 6 and sometimes I almost forget it happened and then it comes crashing back. I have been talking about Prince a lot with my OH and that helps. My brother and his wife are the dog lovers in my family and they have been very good to me.
We have not yet gotten Prince's remains back but when we do we are hoping to to have some sort of little memorial for him. I think this will help my OH a lot as he is away with work.

Take care of yourself, its a huge loss xx

Zoe bowie
25th March 2010, 11:00 PM
I am sitting here reading your posts and crying my eyes out for your loss, it is sooooo hard when we loose the ones we love. I had 2 Cavalier's Zoe & Georgia, unfortunately I have lost them and I miss them each & every day (May will be a year since my last cuddle with them). There are days when it is easier and days when I can actually feel my heart break all over again :( I hope that in time you can deal with this loss, Todd is looking down on you & in true Cavalier style is waiting on that bed in heaven for you for the cuddles you shared, until then he is getting cuddled by all the dog lovers up there and is in peace cavtiny

linderbelle
26th March 2010, 12:23 AM
I am soooooooo sorry for your loss of Todd. I understand the pain of losing a dog. We're all here for you and we all understand your pain. Hugs to you.

gentess1
2nd September 2010, 09:24 AM
6 months to the day since our beautiful boy was chosen. It is taking forever to type this, as the hurt floods back into my eyes. I visit him every day, and obviously miss him like crazy. Just thought I would post this just try and relieve some of the grief

Nicki
2nd September 2010, 09:29 AM
The anniversaries are so hard :cry*ing:

I hope it's helped coming back here though.

:flwr::flwr:

Shivers
2nd September 2010, 05:27 PM
Take care of yourself and always remember Todd fondly. I know its a difficult time x

Desrae
2nd September 2010, 05:35 PM
Thinking of you...:hug:

matties mum
2nd September 2010, 07:47 PM
:hug:

Furrfoot
2nd September 2010, 09:45 PM
I'm so sorry...

Cathy T
3rd September 2010, 05:38 AM
I'm so sorry. I just can't imagine your pain. I'm glad you came back in here though to share your feelings. Hoping you feel some measure of comfort from our words.

gentess1
3rd September 2010, 08:25 AM
Thanks for the kind words, good to be amongst like minded people. Yesterday was a horrible day, and either the other dogs picked up on my hurt or little Toddy had had a word with them because they individually gave me the most gentle loving and cuddles, it really was as if they knew. Todd was and is always special, I still visit him every day on another website. Thanks again

gentess1
8th October 2010, 11:14 AM
I just wanted to share with you kind people the Birthday of my brave, greatly missed Boy Todd. He would have been 3 today, and another hard day for us to get over. His memory and soul are everywhere, RIP

clackdish
8th October 2010, 11:32 AM
am so upset for you , hugs from mischa ,candie ,gemma ,lucy ,me and hils :hug:

jasperpaw
8th October 2010, 11:57 AM
I am so sorry, he was so young, thinking of you today.:hug:

matties mum
8th October 2010, 06:51 PM
:hug: to you all :hug:
---Aileen

gentess1
3rd March 2011, 08:39 PM
It is a year today since our beautiful Todo was taken away from us. It is still very hard at times, and I had to keep away from work today as I dind't want to be exposed to anything else to tip me over the edge emotionally today. Love you Toddy, hope you are safe and warm

Wagtails
3rd March 2011, 09:02 PM
We're all still here for you and can share in your obvious hurt and sadness. Anniversaries are really hard to take

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Ddavis
4th March 2011, 11:51 AM
Wow, I have just read this whole thread and had to stop a LOT of times to compose myself .... I am at work after all. I did however let a few big tears drop and had to re-copy a few pages or work I had been busy with.

I really feel your pain. I lost my very first Cavalier 'Tandy' when he was the same age (that is about 11 years ago now). He was hit by a car and was just such a shock. I went into such a depression at that stage and my folks were ever so worried about me. It was over a year before I could even think about getting another dog ... and it had to be a Cavie!

Gentess1, you and your wife are in my thoughts and prayers and I just know your beautiful boy is happy, pain free and keeping an eye on you.

meljoy
4th March 2011, 11:53 AM
Leo and I are sending hugs and best wishes to you. Hoping your hurt will soon ease.

:hug::hug::hug:

Rubysmum
4th March 2011, 12:24 PM
im really sorry. they give us so much and thats why it hurts so much when they leave. it was eight years after my first dog died that i finally felt ready to love another x

lovecavaliers
4th March 2011, 04:50 PM
I've just read this thread for the first time. I am so deeply sorry for the loss of your sweet Todd. Losing a beloved pet is one of life's hardest hurdles. You will definitely see Todd again waiting with a wagging tail. Hoping you find some solace in remembering the joy he brought into your life.
Many hugs,
Irene