BrooklynMom
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I don't really know if this is the right area to post this in, but I am just sad today...so sad about our cavaliers and their health issues. I feel that we cannot escape them, even if we run fast enough (and I feel like I try to run away from it every day). I hate being paranoid all the time. I hate always wondering. I hate looking at Brooklyn and knowing in my gut something might be wrong. My heart aches, for her, for you all, for your dogs, and for all the puppies that aren't even born yet who will be birthed into a world of unknowns.
I met a woman at the dog park today with two SM affected cavs, her stories of their pain broke my heart. All I wanted to do was fix them. Fix all of them.
I sometimes day dream about taking every cavalier into my home and healing them all. Making them okay. Making them live a life they deserve. I look at Brooklyn sometimes and just pray. I pray that she gets to live the life she deserves. She is a wonderful being. She is the most special creature I have ever seen. And it wasn't until her that I started to believe in god again...something special gave me this gift of love and I just want her protected, always. God gave her to me to keep me going through my own struggles of pain and disease...and what if the tables ever turn? Sometimes I feel like I am selfish, because I need her so much. She can't get sick because I need her to take care of me. But I know she needs me too. She is my other half, the pea in my pod. She is my left hand, my laughter, my Kleenex. She is something special, like all of our Cavs...they are one special breed and I am constantly amazed by how much they change our lives in remarkable ways.
Sorry for the endless rant...I don't even know the point of this post. I guess I am just emotional about my brain that never stop thinking about the "what if..." and "how do I...". You are all such wonderful people, our dogs are such wonderful creatures and I just wish our "health" section of the board could remain empty forever, and all we wrote about is how our cav ate the herb garden, or frolicked in the sand. And we posted funny pictures of our dogs in weird sleeping positions all day or videos of them chasing the cat. Yeah, that would be nice. I bet that is what Cavalier Talk is like in heaven...and we are all good photographers up there too :lol:
I met a woman at the dog park today with two SM affected cavs, her stories of their pain broke my heart. All I wanted to do was fix them. Fix all of them.
I sometimes day dream about taking every cavalier into my home and healing them all. Making them okay. Making them live a life they deserve. I look at Brooklyn sometimes and just pray. I pray that she gets to live the life she deserves. She is a wonderful being. She is the most special creature I have ever seen. And it wasn't until her that I started to believe in god again...something special gave me this gift of love and I just want her protected, always. God gave her to me to keep me going through my own struggles of pain and disease...and what if the tables ever turn? Sometimes I feel like I am selfish, because I need her so much. She can't get sick because I need her to take care of me. But I know she needs me too. She is my other half, the pea in my pod. She is my left hand, my laughter, my Kleenex. She is something special, like all of our Cavs...they are one special breed and I am constantly amazed by how much they change our lives in remarkable ways.
Sorry for the endless rant...I don't even know the point of this post. I guess I am just emotional about my brain that never stop thinking about the "what if..." and "how do I...". You are all such wonderful people, our dogs are such wonderful creatures and I just wish our "health" section of the board could remain empty forever, and all we wrote about is how our cav ate the herb garden, or frolicked in the sand. And we posted funny pictures of our dogs in weird sleeping positions all day or videos of them chasing the cat. Yeah, that would be nice. I bet that is what Cavalier Talk is like in heaven...and we are all good photographers up there too :lol: