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My Angel Ella

anniemac

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My Angel Ella - given her wings 2nd May 2011

I wrote a long post then erased it but might write more. I am overcome with emails, replies to her post on the other forum with her being sick and to help. I ask that one be closed and people say their peace here. I will email each one of you later but I don't want to erase messages and sometimes it's hard to fight the tears. I truly believe Ella touched so many and knowing that gives me some peace. She went through so much yet, would never lose her spirit. In the short life she had, she has brought me friends throughout the world and she will live in my heart forever. I will continue her blog www.fightforella.blogspot.com but this is something from a previous post about why I wanted a Cavalier King Charles Spaniel.

PS. Here last weekend was at the beach (her favorite place). Maybe there was a reason for that. Maybe there is a reason for everything but I know she will be looking down with Rupert and others at Rainbows Bridge.

Why Did I Want a Cavalier King Charles Spaniel?




I could say that Cavalier King Charles Spaniels are the best breed, but a more accurate statement is they are the best breed for me. My cousin has a weimaraner but she runs marathons and is active which did not run in the family. That dog is perfect for her. Could I see her with a Cavalier, no. Then there are the dogs that have functions, like police dogs, working dogs on farms, the hunters, watch dogs, etc. None of those fit my need.



I have always been in love with dogs. I used to draw the same dog over and over again when I was young. It just so happens that the dog looked exactly like Ella. Maybe I got the picture from the move Lady and the Tramp, or maybe I knew something about the future dog that would steal my heart. When I searched for a dog, I did not look for someone who had that image. Even though I think they are beautiful, I had a different reason for wanting one. I needed a dog that would show me the affection that I needed. I wanted a dog that would be by my side and want to lay with me in my lap and by my side. I have said that my choosing to have a dog was because I was in a difficult place and depressed. Someone (I don't think of her as a dog) that loved me unconditionally would be just what I needed. That might sound selfish but it was a mutual bond that I can not even describe.


When I was young I went through my parents divorce and it was extremely difficult for me. I got my first dog as a birthday present. Okay buying a child a dog may not be the best decision because Flip (my cocker spaniel) soon became my parents responsibility. However, there were times when I wanted to hide. I would hold on Flip and every thought would make things okay.


When I read about Cavaliers and there eagerness to please, show affection, complete love was what made me know this was the breed for me. Yes, Sex and the City, made me familiar with them, but it was not the social status of this breed or anything else that was my thoughts. When I went to see the puppies from a breeder I researched, I met Ella. She instantly came to me. She was not playing with the others but fell asleep in my arms and on my chest. I heard her heartbeat, I felt the bond and I fell instantly in love. Ella was not one of the puppies for sale. Actually the breeder was going to keep her for breeding. I have said God gave me Ella and maybe another reason was because she having SM would have saved others from this condition. I guess it is more complicated but she was my angel.


I was instantly lightened with joy. I had a purpose to live, and I will always be thankful to her. As I look into her eyes, I see that closeness. I feel so strongly that I sometimes can see to her soul. A dog having a soul maybe a stretch but there is something unique about dogs.

I have read stories and heard from friends about dogs having a sixth sense. I know personally, Ella will know when I am feeling a certain way and come to me for comfort. How can a dog sense that. The amazing tales of dogs and cats and knowing things before they occur. Recently you may have read the story of Ollie the cat at a nursing home who could tell before a person died. Scientist might say it is because of certain smells etc. but any explanation still remains that this story shows that the future is known before. I have a friend that a lab found a spot of cancer and saved her owner before anything was detected. There are many stories of animals knowing people are sick before.

What about the ability to tell an earthquake is about to happen. Coming home several months later and miles away. So many stories but one that stole my heart was the story of HACHIKO. I watched the Richard Gere movie on this legendary dog in tears. It is a tail of devotion and a bond I feel with Ella. http://www.northlandakitas.com/hachiko.htm tells the legend of this dog that even after his owners death, would go everyday at the same time to the train station awaiting the return of his beloved friend.


I really suggest reading this or watching the movie. If you thought Marley and Me was a tear jerker, then it is even more.














To sum up my story of Ella is pretty simple. I wanted a dog to have a bond with. To share a mutual affection and love that I so long desired. I look at her everyday and I feel it. Some people thing of dogs as pets, some family, some I hate to think of but I think of Ella as a love that I have in my heart that will live on forever.




***I've copied all the posts across from the original thread http://www.cavaliertalk.com/forums/showthread.php?37949-Please-help!-Ella-still-not-well./page11
so that it is all together as a wonderful memorial to a very special dog ***
 
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The words I'm sorry are not enough. There are no words that will ever be enough. Ella has been loved all her life by you and others. She knows love, comfort, happiness and joy. You will hold her forever in your heart. *ng*l

A Parting Prayer

Dear Lord, please open your gates
and call St. Francis
to come escort this beloved companion
across the Rainbow Bridge.

Assign her to a place of honor,
for she has been a faithful servant
and has always done her best to please me.

Bless the hands that send her to you,
for they are doing so in love and compassion,
freeing her from pain and suffering.

Grant me the strength not to dwell on my loss.
Help me remember the details of her life
with the love she has shown me.
And grant me the courage to honor her
by sharing those memories with others.

Let her remember me as well
and let her know that I will always love her.
And when it's my time to pass over into your paradise,
please allow her to accompany those
who will bring me home.

Thank you, Lord,
for the gift of her companionship
and for the time we've had together.

And thank you, Lord,
for granting me the strength
to give her to you now.

Amen.
 
I'm so sorry. Just know that we will all be there with you in spirit as you hold Ella and sing her song for her that one last time as she closes her eyes knowing that she has been loved fully and truly by you. I'm sure you know that the entire CavalierTalk community's heart is broken today.
 
I am so sorry Anne. I am with you in spirit and as my tears flow I know that my Jade will be waiting to welcome precious Ella. Such a sad day for us all, but the ultimate gift of love for her.:(
 
Oh dear I'm so sorry that it has come to this.
Ella has clearly lived her life full of love and has held a place in many of our hearts.
 
A desperately sad day and we are so very sorry :(:(

You have done the most loving, bravest thing you could do for her. xx
 
You know we're all devastated for you Anne,
I'm sorry that such a simple thing has brought matters to a head,but you have always given Ella nothing less than 100% and if only every cavalier had known such love and dedication.
Sins
 
For you and sweet Ella

Hi Anne,
I just want you to know that my heart goes out to you both, and I'm praying for you to be surrounded by love and comfort today. We are all here for you.


Rainbow Bridge
Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge. When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable. All the animals that had been ill and old are restored to health and to vigour. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, someone who was left behind. They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. Her bright eyes are intent; her eager body begins to quiver. Suddenly, she breaks from the group, flying over the green grass, faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together…
 
I really am so sorry. My thoughts are with you at such a heartbreaking time. Ella has been a very brave girl, she will be at peace.
 
I am crying for you just typing this..my heart goes out to you. No words can describe how sorry I am for your loss. I truly commend you for being so strong for Ella's sake, I honestly don't know how I would handle being in your shoe's right now. I have been following you and Ella's story and love looking at the pictures you have of her-she reminds me so much of my Polly. Your love for each other shines out in every photograph. You both will be in my thoughts and prayers.
 
I honestly can't even think of anything to say...

Except that you and Ella are both very brave, very loving souls. God bless... and so glad you get to say goodbye with her little song. My heart is breaking with you. Ella will be a special angel watching over you.
 
I have tears in my eyes as I write this, I know how much you love Ella and how much she loves you. I am so sorry, I wish I could offer some words to make this pain go away! Ella was blessed to have you as her owner, you brought so much love and light into her life! :hug:
 
Anne, so sorry. I know how much Ella meant to you. It's the hardest decision to make but the ultimate act of love for our babies. We will light a candle for Ella tonight:hug:

Carol, Paul, Elise and Kaleyxxxx
 
I am so very sorry Anne, you have been very brave and have done your very best for Ella and she knows how much you love her.:hug:
 
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