so sad reading about your baby..
my deepest sympathy to you, your partner and your parents.
your arrangement with your sister sounds wonderful, i wish i had something like that.
my first dog, when i was a kid, was teddy, she died by being hit by a car after she had run away when she got scared by firecrackers. the pain never goes away. I wanted a new dog right away. but the next two i had, i didn't get close to, they were not that kind of dog, the way teddy was. then after i moved away from my parents, i got frank and she was my best friend and constant companion for 13 years. she died of cancer. It was and always will be painful to lose frank, but teddy's death was more terrible because she was young (4 years old) and died in that violent way. after frank, my life circumstances didn't permit getting a dog. now, 25 years later, i got zack. your story is a reminder of how precious each moment with them is. you never know what's going to happen.
jana--the story of the old dog was very comforting to me somehow. thanks