I can ABSOLUTELY understand your stress. I can relate to it because I've experienced some of it myself. I never imagined I could become as I am with regard to a pet. It's difficult for me to even use the word pet when I think of my relationship with Tucker. One thing that I've tried to tell myself is that although I want to be informed about cavaliers, and diseases they are prone to, I do not want to spend too much time dwelling on it. I can look at Tucker as my much loved companion or I can look at him as a potential patient. I prefer a companion. I bring him for regular checkups at the vet, and if he's sick he goes in to be seen. I rely upon experts to tell me if my dog is healthy or unhealthy. Since I've put him on a diet that works for him, I feel much more relieved. The old worries creep in from time to time, is this an itch or is this a symptom of SM and then I tell myself to stop. Jeez, it's winter, my skin is dry and itches, dry flaky skin on my body is just that, I moisturize for it, I don't run to a website on dermatologic disorders.
For me the depth of the love I feel for Tucker was unexpected. I have no children. Perhaps if I were a mother I would not worry as I have. But I'm relieved to say, I've turned a corner, not completely worry free, but I no longer look at him for symptoms. I look at him with love and pleasure. Enjoy Kingston.
edited to include: Chris I've had the same thoughts myself with regard to what I'd be like as a parent. Based on my reaction to Tucker, I suspect I'd be one of those incredibly nervous mothers. Although at least with human babies I have experience, being one of 7 children, and having 12 nieces and nephews. I had lots of experience mothering, just not to a furbaby.