Ok so here is a little background. Doodles is a 1 1/2year old blk and tan spayed female. We got her at 12weeks. Almost immediatly after we got Doodles I noticed she couldnt squat in one place to poop. I work at a vets office at the time so we shot x rays and found out that our 12 week old puppy had horrible hips. The vet took Doodles off puppy food to stop her from growing to fast and put her on Cosequin. We were told her hips would either get better and be fine once she was full grown or she would need surgery. That was Oct 2005. Then this last Christmas 2006 we took Doodles with us to Christmas in Pheonix. Well the night we left was the night after the big blizzards started to hit Colorado. Doodles was out playing in the snow as usual. When we got in the car to drive to Arizona I noticed Doodles was limping. I got her doggy aspirin and just thought it was a sprain or something from trudging through the snow which was 4ft high. We were in Arizona nine days, every day I gave Doodles her aspirin and Cosequin and tried to keep her quiet among 50 people and 3 dogs she had never met. When we got home she was still limping so I took her to the vet. They told me she had a luxating patella and they wanted me to try Rimidyl for a week and see if she felt better. Well she didnt and we ended up back at the vet. The vet took more x rays because of her previous hip problems and found out that it looked like Doodles had completely grown out of her bad hips. But her Luxation was bad and she need surgery. So at the end of January Doodles had Patella surgery on her left knee. The vet also looked at the other knee and said the other one looked normal. Well we got her home and tried to keep her quiet which isnt easy because she is the hyperist Cavalier I have ever seen. Everything was going good till yesterday. I woke up yesterday and she was limping on her right leg. I just cried! This morning the right leg seems fine but she is now holding up her left leg and seems like she is having trouble going to the bathroom. We are going to the vet tomorrow but I am horrible scared of the outcome. I love all my pets to death but this couldnt have come at a worse time. My fiancee and I waited to start planning our wedding till after we had taken care of her medical expenses. I just sent the site deposit(1500.00) three days ago. Plus Doodles little sister(Kiwi) is getting spayed next week and microchipped and her other sister who is a cat(Lexus) is getting a dental the same day. That should be around a 500.00 vet bill. How do I come up with another 1000.00? I know I will find a way to pay for it if she needs it but the stress is going to kill me in the meantime. I am also worried about the quality of life she will have if she needs a surgery on her other knee or the same one again. She is a spunky dog. Keeping her off the couch, stairs and peoples lap is virtually impossible. I feel like I ma failing her as a mom. I have always considered myself very responsible for 21yrs old and thought I did more for my pets then most people would do but I am seriously doubting myself now. I just look at her and I cry because I cant bear the thought of losing her or not letting her be herself!