September of this year will mark the second anniversary of both your birthday and the day you passed away. We have been so filled with grief since you passed we never laid your ashes to rest. Today we finally did, under an Azalea bought to remember you. Like you it’s pretty to look at and so bright and cheerful you can help but smile when you see it. Now you lay in the yard you once played in. I miss you so much still, writing this I can't help but cry.
I loved and love you still so much.
My dear Jakey, you truly were my best friend.
There was always a reason we didn’t bury his ashes, the garden wasn't pretty enough yet, it was too soon, wait till spring... With Marley coming home this coming Saturday we knew it was time, time to let go of Jake, time to say our goodbyes, as hard as it is. A new era is starting, its not fair to be hanging onto so much baggage…
So we did it… I feel far more at peace now, (hasn’t stoped the tears when I think to much about him) , But I can smile remembering all the things he did that brought me so much joy. Now he lies under the frangipani that once grew in my Nan’s yard, she passed away a few years ago and loved him dearly, it only seemed right to place him next to her tree, I know he's keeping her company now, waiting for the time when we'll all be together again. I posted this poem when I first wrote about Jake, now that we've laid him to rest, I'll post it again as it truly hit a cord for me just after he passed.
Only Wanted You
They say memories are golden well maybe that is true,
I never wanted memories, I only wanted you.
A million times I needed you, a million times I cried.
If love alone could have saved you you never would have died.
In life I loved you dearly, In death I love you still.
In my heart you hold a place no on could ever fill
If tears could build a stairway and heartache make a lane,
I'd walk the path to heaven and bring you back again.
Our family chain if broken, and nothing seems the same.
But as God calls us one by one, the chain will link again