luvzcavs
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I have not mentioned this before as I find it too hard to talk about, but today I'm feeling brave.
Harry was diagnosed with a murmur at the age of 2.5 years old. Both his mitral valve and tricuspid valve are effected. I have been devastated since I first learnt of this and used to cry everyday and work myself into a state, I then had a good talk with myself and decided that this was doing me nor him any good and would not change anything so I adopted the make everyday count approach and focus and enjoy the here and now.
This has got me through the last 18 months or so but lately I just feel sick about having to face the gradual deterioration that is to come and I just don't feel I can cope.
I know there is not a choice, I know it is inevitable and I know I am lucky as it has not begun yet and I should just be thankful for what I have at the moment, but I can't shake it.
How do you all do it ?
I have visions of the pain and suffering he will enventually go through and I am not ready and don't feel I ever will be.
Harry has been a special boy ever since I got him with one complication or another due to chronic allergies so I am already used to the extra care needed for a sick doggy, the medication trial and error the regime that must be followed for their comfort and the trips back and forth to the specialist but this feels different as it is so unknown.
Currently Harry has no symptoms of his heart disease, I don't actually think he knows he has it, he is on a normal diet and exercise program and does not take meds for his heart. I sometimes feel this makes it harder as I don't know when it will begin and no one can tell me, all the cardiologist says is he has compensated for the gradual changes that have arisen to date.
Wow this has turned into a lot of waffle of me pouring out my heart but i guess I just want to know how to get through this time ???
Harry was diagnosed with a murmur at the age of 2.5 years old. Both his mitral valve and tricuspid valve are effected. I have been devastated since I first learnt of this and used to cry everyday and work myself into a state, I then had a good talk with myself and decided that this was doing me nor him any good and would not change anything so I adopted the make everyday count approach and focus and enjoy the here and now.
This has got me through the last 18 months or so but lately I just feel sick about having to face the gradual deterioration that is to come and I just don't feel I can cope.
I know there is not a choice, I know it is inevitable and I know I am lucky as it has not begun yet and I should just be thankful for what I have at the moment, but I can't shake it.
How do you all do it ?
I have visions of the pain and suffering he will enventually go through and I am not ready and don't feel I ever will be.
Harry has been a special boy ever since I got him with one complication or another due to chronic allergies so I am already used to the extra care needed for a sick doggy, the medication trial and error the regime that must be followed for their comfort and the trips back and forth to the specialist but this feels different as it is so unknown.
Currently Harry has no symptoms of his heart disease, I don't actually think he knows he has it, he is on a normal diet and exercise program and does not take meds for his heart. I sometimes feel this makes it harder as I don't know when it will begin and no one can tell me, all the cardiologist says is he has compensated for the gradual changes that have arisen to date.
Wow this has turned into a lot of waffle of me pouring out my heart but i guess I just want to know how to get through this time ???