Thank you so much everyone for all the lovely posts, also to those whom have very kindly PM'd and e-mailed.:flwr::flwr:
My apologies for my PM box being full, I'm going to empty it now...
My husband was reading messages out to me - I had to go to the crematorium again yesterday, it's just over 160 mile round trip and I was exhausted and completely drained from all the emotion and trying to keep myself together for the trip. I hadn't been able to come on until now - it's still hard to type.
The crematorium are really lovely - it's a husband and wife team offering a very personal service. Sadly I've got to know them rather well over the last 2 years
They very kindly arranged so that I could drop Fufu to them, then go off for about 4 hours and then be able to pick her up so I could bring her ashes home. It's helped to have her home so quickly.
Our home is feeling very empty - we were fostering Esme for Debbie and she left us at the end of last month; then with Teddy and Fufu going, we've dropped from 7 to 4 dogs in just a few weeks.
At the moment most of the time I'm feeling numb - which I think is a blessing and maybe just my way of coping. It's the small things that are setting me off - getting out too many bowls or treats, a change in the greetings when I get home {Teddy gave such enthusiastic greetings and used to be so pleased to see me}; Fufu used to bark for her treat!!
Marie-Anne, that is a lovely poem, thank you. :flwr: