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    Default How Can I Profit from the Example of Ella

    I sometimes think that Ella knew that her CM/SM was weighing on me. I feel if I would have been stronger she still would be with me. I know she did not like me upset when she was here and she would not want that now but it is still so hard. Today has been a tough day so I thought I would post my recent post.

    How Can I Profit From the Example of Ella



    “Here lies DASH, the Favourite Spaniel of Queen Victoria


    By whose command this Memorial was erected.
    He died on the 20 December, 1840 in his 9th year.

    His attachment was without selfishness,

    His playfulness without malice,

    His fidelity without deceit.

    READER, if you would live beloved and die regretted, profit by the example of DASH.”















    My life will never be the same since after My Angel Ella came into my life. I have learned so much from her.






    "Dogs have a way of finding the people who need them, Filling an emptiness we don't even know we have."


    Thom Jones


    Ella was not just a dog. She was angel that was sent to me. She has taught me about loving one more than yourself and that I could ever imagine. She taught me about forgiveness. She taught me how to make someone’s day just by showing you care. We will forever be connected because she will remain in my heart forever. I believe that even though she is not physically here, she is an angel looking down on me and everyone. So I will ask myself:




    What Would Ella Want



    She would want to run after the birds.

    She would want to sniff each flower.


    She would want to great each person and dog with a smile and waiting for them to pet her.


    She would want to run around in the park with her fur friends.


    She would want to run on the sand in the beach.


    She would want to run after a tennis ball and wait for me to come to her to throw it again 


    She would want to spread across the whole bed like a princess.




    I could say so many things but she never asked for them. I just knew these are things she enjoyed. The only time she would get the “please mom, I don’t want to” action was when we were at the beach. We slept in a bedroom that was by itself. The upstairs was where all the action was including *cough* kitchen. She wanted to be around everyone and even if they were going to sleep, she wanted to make sure she was there and not missing anything. She would sit by the door impatiently wanting to go back. She even scratched to door with her paw, looking up at me with those sad eyes.







    We left the beach at 5am the Monday after Easter to return back to work in Charlotte. She immediately got sick in the car. She was running on the beach Sunday but that would be her last run on the sandy beach. The last time she would chase shells in the breaking waves. I had no idea that would be the last time she smiled at all.






    That Monday she did not get better and she did not hog the bed that night, nor did she end up on top of my head and pillows. I woke up to her on the bathroom floor. I took her to the Vet Tuesday morning. She came home because they thought it was a bug. She still did not eat and again even though she always is close by, she was on the floor again. The next day when I took her back to the vet, I did not know that when she would return home, it would be her spirit.






    I think Ella got what she wanted, a weekend at her favorite place before it would be her time to say goodbye.






    I never thought about it that way until now. I feel like Ella was sent to me as an Angel to help me through some hard times. She saved my life and that is why I wanted to do everything I could to save hers. It seems like it was before her time, but maybe there was a reason she felt it was her time to go back to Heaven and help me and others from there.






    Maybe she did not want me to see her struggle. Sometimes I feel like I was losing strength and I get so upset with myself. It can weigh on you emotionally to not know what the future holds. I loved and still love her so much that I wanted to be the one to have the pain instead of her.






    Would Ella want that? Would she want me to be scared of losing her? Would she want to see the sadness in my eyes that she came to me to change?






    No. She would not want that because that was her whole reason she found me. It does still hurt and the pain is still raw but I have to think of everything she taught me.






    What did I learn from her?





    More to come…


    Anne Proud mother of Elton 5 and Angel Ella

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    Oh Anne, that as beautiful......thank you for sharing. I am in tears. Holding you close in thought and prayer.
    Cindy and Claire
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    Quote Originally Posted by mommytoClaire View Post
    Oh Anne, that as beautiful......thank you for sharing. I am in tears. Holding you close in thought and prayer.
    Thank you. I've been in tears all day

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    [QUOTE]Sometimes I feel like I was losing strength and I get so upset with myself. It can weigh on you emotionally to not know what the future holds. I loved and still love her so much that I wanted to be the one to have the pain instead of her.

    Would Ella want that? Would she want me to be scared of losing her? Would she want to see the sadness in my eyes that she came to me to change?


    /QUOTE]

    As you know, I've been feeling this way with Sydney's illness. I know it's not the same as Ella, but emotions are emotions and you can't help how you feel. Sometimes I have to leave the house so Sydney doesn't see how upset or anxious I am. When he senses my pain, I see him feeling worse. Just hold onto all the good. Cry if you need to. Everyone here will be there for you. I continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

    In My Heart
    I thought of you with love today, but that is nothing new.
    I thought about you yesterday, and days before that too.
    I think of you in silence. I often speak your name.
    Now all I have is memories, and your picture in a frame.
    Your memory is my keepsake, with which I’ll never part.
    God has you in his keeping.
    I have you in my heart.
    Joyce - Proudly owned & loved by

    BellaMia (Aug. 30, 2012) My Beautiful Ruby Milo (Jan. 20, 2014) My Handsome Tri
    Sydney (
    April 16, 2000~April 4, 2012) Always and Forever In My Heart

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    It was Ella's birthday a couple of days ago and it's coming up on one year since she went to rainbows bridge. I am so sad and cry for her.

    Ella, I miss you so much that my heart aches for you. I wish I had your strength. I love you sweet girl.
    Anne Proud mother of Elton 5 and Angel Ella

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    Anne, I'm crying with you and I uderstand the ache you feel in your heart.
    Thinking of you with tears in my eyes and love in my heart.
    Joyce - Proudly owned & loved by

    BellaMia (Aug. 30, 2012) My Beautiful Ruby Milo (Jan. 20, 2014) My Handsome Tri
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    April 16, 2000~April 4, 2012) Always and Forever In My Heart

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    Quote Originally Posted by Sydneys Mom View Post
    Anne, I'm crying with you and I uderstand the ache you feel in your heart.
    Thinking of you with tears in my eyes and love in my heart.
    Thanks Joyce. I feel for you and Sydney. I hope she is with him and we both will reunite one day. It does get a little easier but I'm feeling the emptiness this week. I read about how you feel for Sydney and i cry with you too.
    Anne Proud mother of Elton 5 and Angel Ella

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    Dear Anne, I didnt know about Ella's birthday. I hope that as time has passed, you can celebrate her. She gave you her all, and you the same to her.

    I believe she sent you little Elton. And he is a true companion. You needed him, but HE needed you just as much.

    It's okay to grieve...and cry and remember your sweet girl. But remember the treasure you have in Elton, as he was the gift you've been given. I know he will never replace Ella, she was too unique for that to happen. But you can carry her memory forward in educating others about CM/SM and giving little Elton the love that he deserves. Ella's memory goes on in all you do.

    You are a good woman Anne, and a great momma. Don't ever doubt that. Hugs and prayers for peace for you.
    Cindy and Claire
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    Anne just wanted to let you know I was thinking of you. I can see Ella up at rainbow bridge pain free and enjoying all those things you mentioned. You will be reunited with her one day. In the meantime cherish the sweet memories and your boy Elton, who I believe Ella sent to you to help you get through this loss. Hugs!
    Irene-
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    I can't believe it has been a year allready. My heart aches for you.

    This allways makes me cry but this poem is lovely


    • I stood by your bed last night, I came to have a peep.
    • I could see that you were crying, You found it hard to sleep.
    • I whined to you softly as you brushed away a tear,
    • "It's me, I haven't left you, I'm well, I'm fine, I'm here."
    • I was close to you at breakfast, I watched you pour the tea,
    • You were thinking of the many times, your hands reached down to me.
    • I was with you at the shops today, Your arms were getting sore.
    • I longed to take your parcels, I wish I could do more.
    • I was with you at my grave today, You tend it with such care.
    • I want to re-assure you, that I'm not lying there.
    • I walked with you towards the house, as you fumbled for your key.
    • I gently put my paw on you, I smiled and said " it's me."
    • You looked so very tired, and sank into a chair.
    • I tried so hard to let you know, that I was standing there.
    • It's possible for me, to be so near you everyday.
    • To say to you with certainty, "I never went away."
    • You sat there very quietly, then smiled, I think you knew...
    • In the stillness of that evening, I was very close to you.
    • The day is over... I smile and watch you yawning
    • and say "good-night, God bless, I'll see you in the morning."
    • And when the time is right for you to cross the brief divide,
    • I'll rush across to greet you and we'll stand, side by side.
    • I have so many things to show you, there is so much for you to see.
    • Be patient, live your journey out...then come home to be with me
    Sabby
    Rosie-06/06 - Ebony-01/07 Harley-08/08
    " My sunshine doesn't come from the skies, it comes from the love in my dogs eyes "

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