I wrote this poem..or whatever it might be... and posted it on a collabrative art website i am part of.
this is for my boy Oliver.
I miss your sad puppy dog eyes
I miss the freckles on your nose.
I miss the warm wet tong that would lick my hand silly
I miss the sound of your collar when you shook your head
i miss the sight of you sleeping on the coffee table in the middle of the afternoon.
I miss our long evening walks together
i miss the sight of niko dragging his owner down the street..barrelling at us full speed to say hello
I miss the sound of you scratching the sliding glass door to come in
i miss your breath fogging up that door
i miss your foot prints on the beach, or in the snow
i miss your excitement..of rolling in the snow..thoroughly enjoying every second of it
I miss your stubbornness when you didn't want to go for a walk, or be seen in your rain gear.
i miss the sound of your cry when you thought you were alone
i miss you begging for a treat every time we left grandma and grandpas house
i miss you squashed in next to me on the trips to vancouver
I miss your comforting presence when i was uncomfortable or nervous
I miss you sleeping at the end of my bed
I miss our trips up island together..because with you by my side..i was never alone
i miss our late night drives through town..when there was nothing else to do but listen to music and drive the empty streets.
I miss our walks on the piers..
I miss our matching hoodies
i miss you sniffing every inch of every strange place you were in
I miss people coming up to us and saying what a cute dog you were
I miss the smell of your hair when you got groomed
I miss your body wiggle when you itched
I miss the sound of your foot hitting the bowl at dinner time.
i miss you scarfing it down
i miss talking to you..even though you probably didn't understand me..or at least you pretended not to understand me
I miss you laying grumpily next to me when i take a bath
I miss your sighs..impatient..annoyed
I miss playing ball with you
I miss your endless bounds of energy and excitement when we caved and did play ball
i miss your impatient whines when we did not throw the ball fast enough
i miss the thump thump of your running
i miss nuzzling your nose with mine
I miss the feeling of your soft fur
I miss tackling you to trim your paws.
i miss the hair all over the bathroom, the couch and my clothes
I miss coming home to you every night
i miss the way you would paw my leg to get my attention
I miss the way you would snuggle up to me on the couch.
But mostly… I miss you.
You died of a broken heart. and now i am left with a broken heart