Joyce,
To try to begin to feel such loss is felt in the pain and compassion of reading your sadness through your writings. I can only imagine what you must be going through. My heart aches for you, because one day I know I will be going down this same journey. I too have a beautiful almost 8 year girl whom I love dearly, I think even sometimes more than life itself. She has had Sm for two in a half years, and now she just recently was diagnosed with a severe case of MVD so I understand the love you have for Sydney. God's word shares in Ecclesiastes 3 That there is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven. It shares that there is a time to weep, and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to tear and a time to mend. The laughs and the dance was shared when Sydney was with you. The loss of Sydney now brings you to a place to mourn to weep and to tear, God will be there to catch every tear drop that falls from your eyes. But the journey is yours to bring you to a place of mending. Where one day, or month or year, how ever long it takes. You will exchange those tears for laughter and remember all the silly things or the joyful times you experienced with Sydney. Your heart will become lighter and you will begin to experiece the love of Sydney in a different way although in the natural you will not feel his touch, but in the super natural you will feel his love in your heart, your thoughts will become happier and you will be blessed because you have had the most precious gift of all. Prayers are with you!
Blessings,
Pamela/Isabelle
Rainbow Bridge has a place you can add Sydney. There is where I added my Beloved German Shepherd Trek. I reflect and write my most deepest thoughts and you can visit and add things to the memorial site. It helped me a lot when I was dealing with the loss. Maybe it will do the same for you.
Hugs!!