Not been on here for a while... My beautiful girl Ruby had to go to sleep on Thursday 19th July... I have not stopped crying since then. I feel so lost without her... Her heart was going very fast and I knew it was time.... I stayed with her while they put her to sleep and was whispering in her ear how much i loved her and what a special girl she was..... It was horrible... Although she went peacefully so at least that was good. I feel like my heart is about to break but I know eventually the pain will ease.... Every where I go I feel like her little feet are still following me.....She used to wherever I went... I went in the garden yesterday and there was a bright yellow feather near the back door.... I do not know where it came from but I have heard that feathers mean angels but i only have heard about white feathers.... Anyone heard of this before.... Maybe just a bird but never heard of a bright yellow one.... I like to think maybe Ruby sent it down......

Feel like my heart is being ripped out at the moment....

Thank you... Rose