I truly understand how much you miss Butters. In time, the pain will ease but I don't think we ever get over the loss completely. I k ow I felt a sense of peace when I brought Sydney's ashes home. I made a special spot for them with our favorite picture hanging on the wall above. I also have another beautiful wooden box that I put some of his favorite toys in, special memories, etc. Things that mean so much. You'll find your own way to honor Butters.
I smile each morning when I see my calendar and beautiful Butters is looking out at me.