20th May 2014, 08:42 PM
Coming to terms with saying goodbye... CHF
I am trying to come to terms with the fact my poorly little lady probably isn't going to be here much longer. Each time she gets excited now she will lie on all fours as if she is exhaused, along with her fainting episode on saturday afternoon.
She is already on fresimide x2- x3 daily, prilactone x1 daily, vetmedin x1 daily and fortekur x1 daily. I am taking her to the vets thursday but surley there is nothing more the vet can do for her, is there?
After being diagnosed in January i am still having trouble coming to terms with this terminal illness, I thought gradually in time the pain would ease and things would become a little easier to deal with- but seeing her deteriorate is just making me feel worse than ever.
The most upsetting part is how brave and happy she is, such a loving, gorgeous little dog doesn't deserve this at just 9 years old.
I've noticed she is coughing and sleeping more, drinking more and the fainting/collapsing is really concerning me now hence the vet visit. Ultimately i know its me who calls the shots and makes the decision on when the time is 'right' - i think that just makes the whole thing harder. I am trying to begin the grieving process but finding it difficult because i know she is still here with me at present, I cant imagine my life without her, i think this is why I cant begin to grieve.
feeling so emotional at the moment and just need somewhere to turn to where others will understand how im feeling; she is so much more than just a dog to me, shes my best friend, my child, when she leaves me i will be utterly heartbroken to say the least.
would be great full if anyone has any stories about there cavvies who have pulled through bad spells and gone on to live that llittle bit longer...? (I know i am giving myself false hope) or if anyone can offer me any advice it would be greatly appreciated, trying my hardest to keep my chin up as i want to enjoy the time I have left with her.
Ellie & Little Elizabeth