Oh guys now you've got me in tears too - these wee ones just get right into your soul
They are just so very special and become a part of you.
It took me a year to really come to terms with losing my old boy - Rupert at 12 1/2, he had been such a huge part of our lives. I dreaded the thought of life without him, and really didn't know how to face it - but each day comes and goes, sometimes {to start with, most of the time} there are very sad days, but eventually you start to adjust, that dreadful raw pain eases and we can now, 16 months on, remember the happy times and laugh at all the naughty things he used to do!!
We have lost 6 Cavaliers now - and it NEVER gets any easier. Some insenstive soul said to us when we lost one aged 5, "what's the matter with you, you've got the other two?" - I so hope they never said that to peple who'd lost children as well...
But they are all individuals, and all very, very special - having had a few dogs now and also fostered quite a few, there are always the ones you develop a very strong bond with, and others whom you love but maybe not quite so deeply. The special ones are really hard to deal with when you lose them.
It must be even harder to lose an only dog - at least we still have the routine and someone to cuddle and keep going for...
Steve it was bad of your vets to make that mistake, and please don't feel if you'd spent more Todd would have survived - you did everything you could.
We are all here to support each other and it's good that we have somewhere to come and "talk" - we think of the forum as Karlin's sitting room, so we are all sitting round with a cup of coffee and "chatting" - but in a way that maybe we couldn't do if we actually met in person.
I don't think I've posted this before but it might help you to understand that most of us feel how you do...I made myself {and maybe the Universe, I no longer have any faith sadly} a bit of a bargain that if I gave up chocolate then Rupert would live. That was so hard for me as I was completely addicted to chocolate and did eat a lot - probalby as hard as someone else giving up smoking.
I did manage it - Rupert was more important - but of course it didn't work, it was Rupert's time to go, there was too much wrong in his wee body. I think Todd was the same, he was in pain and that's not fair.
{Strangely I have now had to give up chocolate due to stomach problems, it is a trigger for them.}
Stay strong but keep the memories alive .
Molski you are so right...
Thinking of you both.